April 15th Sucked

First and foremost I want to give a big round of applause to all the men/ women, volunteers, police officers, etc. who ran towards the blasts to save people during such a time of mass confusion and terror. I have never been so impressed by seeing these brave people come up so big during such a chaotic time.

A day later there is a lot to think about. When I first heard about this I was actually in my room with my gf taking a nap and my roommate turned on the TV and we overheard that something bad happened. We immediately got up and walked to the TV and saw that all of this madness happened literally a mile from my house. I can probably relate to all of you when I say my emotions didn't even know how to act. My cell phone was disabled so I couldn't call people, I couldn't text people, I would get a wave of texts then my phone service would go away. After a couple of hours and discovering that most of my friends/ family were ok, you just kind of stare at the TV emotionless. Truth is I didn't/ don't know how to think. I'm obviously concerned for all those who are injured, mad at whoever did this, confused on a motive, just so many questions just circling my head. Yesterday I honestly could have just stared at a wall for hours and not even noticed. Then after a while I couldn't stand anything, I couldn't deal with the news, I couldn't deal with twitter, I couldn't deal with facebook, every social media was just getting me annoyed so I would take walks around the block just to do something. Last night was even weirder when you are trying to go to sleep and you just are replaying the clips you see on the news, waking up every hour to see if their is any new development or if that caught the fuckhead that did all of this shit.

Now today as I am writing this, I am not any less confused, mad, sad. I am just numb, I want to go to work, do my job and block out the fact that the city that I live in just had some evil person cause such devastation and chaos throughout the city. Although many of us may have different views on our President, one thing he said yesterday is for sure, "Boston is a tough and resilient town. So are its people. I'm supremely confident that Bostonians will pull together, take care of each other, and move forward as one proud city."

And we will.